Thoughts on Life Adjustments and Goals...

Recently I've learned that I am somewhat of a "People Pleaser."
On occasion, I suppose there is no problem with this, but I have also learned that too often you forget what is best for yourself.  Intimate relationships are the worst at bring out the "people pleaser" characteristic.  When you really care about someone and are happy with them, you want to be with them always.  You go out of your way to see them, make them smile, surprise them, and tell them of your love.
However, today I have discovered I need to make a life adjustment.  There are two things wrong with what I'm doing.  I shouldn't go out of my way to see someone and do everything in my power to make them happy and expect the same in return.   Unfortunately, that is unrealistic and irrational.  It's causes additional problems in the relationship because now I hold expectations for them.  If they don't met those expectations, it can cause friction.  The second thing, the most important thing in my life right now should be school and not a relationship.  Sacrificing time for school to be with that person isn't worth it.  If you are really meant to be with that person, you will have forever to see them and be with them.  School unfortunately, does not have an everlasting opportunity.


I have also decided today, I am going to start living more in the moment.  I hate looking back at old pictures and reminiscing about old times and then wishing I could bring the moments back.  I want to start enjoying every moment in my life.  Even when having a bad day, I shouldn't get sucked into it.  Any good day can suddenly change to a bad one and vice versa.  Besides the fact, having something bad happen during the day and then staying in a bad mood can make for a terrible day.  Your day then becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.

And that concludes my thoughts on the changes that need to be made in my life.